Left out

My other kids have had to cope Witness me almost give up hope Take back seats in my attention Though it’s never my intention Her actions often supersede Them, in their times of need. They watch me trying to refrain From falling too far down again They’ve seen that once before When I couldn’t go

A piece of sleep

I try to rest, I do my best. Eyes screwed up tight It’s dark, it’s night Why can’t I sleep? But as I lay there Shrouded in darkness My thoughts creep Crowding in on me The doubts and fears My inadequacy Haunting me Over the years What else should I have done? Where did it

Suicidal thoughts

I’m gonna wash these thoughts right out of my hair, Or maybe just sit in my underwear But sneakily they take hold Suddenly I’m cold Put on my pjs and go back to bed If they’re going to take over and mess with my head Haven’t showered for a week, it’s not a big deal